Saturday, April 11, 2009
Thank You All
On my last post I gave in to feelings of helplessness and despair. This is not my usual type of post. By nature I am a positive tomorrow is a another day kind of girl. I have spent a lifetime not refusing to see but refusing to let the trials and tribulations get me down. In a way it was the greatest gift God ever gave me, the ability to see that there is always hope. Unfortunately sometimes even I get overwhelmed and yesterday it hit with a vengeance.
I thought that I would just curl up and ignore what was coming wait for it to pass and then on Monday start picking up the pieces.. I wrote the words here because finally I had a place to say them. Instead of shoving them away or sucking it up and accepting that bad choices make a bad life. Of course my bad choices revolve around living a positive life, raising kids and committing my adult life to making them better people. No drugs, No alcohol, No cigarettes.. my addiction of choice.. books.. yes that is right I read to escape. Anyway back on track...
Yesterday I gave in to despair and I was offered such words of support and comfort both in my comments and in my private emails. Thank you all so very much I honestly didn't see that one coming. It was a gift beyond measure so while it still sucks that I can not do what I dream of for my kids I can take solace in the fact that there are those out there with compassionate and generous hearts..