Monday, November 10, 2008

The Throw Away Girl

I have often wondered what it would be like to not have been the throw away girl. I wonder what it would be like to be the one that was fought for, not the also ran. The one who didn't have to spend every single moment of her life proving she was worth the effort.

I wonder what it would be like to know that your family doesn't snicker when they say your name. Or shake their head in worry that they were proud of who you were and what you believed in.

I wonder what it would be like to be the one that was taken out and showed off instead of the one who was tolerated. I wonder what it would be like to have someone be there with you when your demons called, maybe even occasionally fighting them for you instead of pushing you out the door with a positive thought and little else.

I wonder what it would be like to be loved so deeply that your faults were overlooked instead of constantly being pointed out.

Just once I wonder what it would be like, to be the one that is valued, prized, respected.


  1. my friend you are not a throw away girl. you are all of those things you feel you do not have and oh so much more.

    yes i feel and know from your words that this love and support should be coming from the ones that are the closest to you. However, when it does not reach in and find it within your self. as ive read from your words self worth comes from within so does this knowledge and feelings.

    You are not a throw away girl. you are a dream catch to someone who will one day see you for the beauity and all the wonders you have to offer them and this world.

    keep writing and finding the truth that for now seems to be hiding in your heart.

  2. some of us are throw away girls in the other aspect of the term. we have it all, we have the love, we have the Prince to fight our dragons......but we throw it all away on a whim....

    We make a good pair, you believe you're one kind, i believe i'm the other.....maybe, just maybe when it all comes down to the line, neither of us actually are. we just see the world through glasses that aren't rose-coloured, but are rather more shadowed and judge ourselves so much more harshly than others ever could.

    Chin up sweet friend, we'll fight our way out of this river together and fall onto the bank happy and healthy even if i have to drag us there on my own.

  3. thr idea that you are a throw away is just wrong. the way you write and express your self is a gift, and should be treasured. and never I say NEVER let go in any way.Go back and read your blogs.throw away people are just not able to do what you do.please go on blessed be Guy