Monday, November 10, 2008
The Throw Away Girl
I have often wondered what it would be like to not have been the throw away girl. I wonder what it would be like to be the one that was fought for, not the also ran. The one who didn't have to spend every single moment of her life proving she was worth the effort.
I wonder what it would be like to know that your family doesn't snicker when they say your name. Or shake their head in worry that they were proud of who you were and what you believed in.
I wonder what it would be like to be the one that was taken out and showed off instead of the one who was tolerated. I wonder what it would be like to have someone be there with you when your demons called, maybe even occasionally fighting them for you instead of pushing you out the door with a positive thought and little else.
I wonder what it would be like to be loved so deeply that your faults were overlooked instead of constantly being pointed out.
Just once I wonder what it would be like, to be the one that is valued, prized, respected.